My XAH always used to want me to be proud of him when he was... "doing so much better than before"... total deflection..."better than before", didn't mean good and it sure as heck didn't mean sober.... it also never STAYED better... it always ramped back up to bad and all the chaos that came with it.
I'm glad you found us, but I'm sorry for what brings you here. You are definitely in the right place.
*hug*