Originally Posted by
Gottalife 
Same experience here. I lost the power of choice in drink and I never got it back - either way. The Big Book of AA is full of promises, yet regaining the power of choice is not one of them.
Someone reminded me once -
Even IF I think I get the choice back after really taking the first step, there's that pesky 3rd step where I turn my will (and what is my will, if not my choices) over to the care of God because my management of it (them - will and choice) has proved to be disastrous in the long haul.