I want to drink, but I know it won’t do anything but provide me with more worry, aches and pains.
I realized fairly early that nothing could get so bad a drink wouldn't make it worse. When I sobered up I'd still have the same problems plus shame and regret over drinking.
AA is everywhere and it only costs $1. I wouldn't have gotten sober on my own, the support and love carried me through the hardest things.