Thank you dandylion...I need lecturing right now...not that I took your post that way...but I am so lost!! I have never known addiction before my son so this has been extremely hard!! I have gone to a couple of al anon meetings and although they helped...I just can't seem to get myself to go!! I have always been very social but lately, I don't want to deal with anyone!! I just want to be alone. It did help me for you to tell me that this is very common. I feel so alone so it helps to hear that my problems have been felt before...thank you for replying. I truly appreciate it.