Originally Posted by
rolliby 
The total opposite is just a confusing. During my many "drying out" periods finally honestly seeking true sobriety after 35 years of daily drinking, I would have a week or two sober and launch into euphoria and many extended projects. There is a bit of over-achieving self-sabotage in that as well. Balance is key.
Yes that's exactly how I've felt about it. This job I'm trying to start is very much a self-motivated, set your own hours kind of thing, and I'm not sure I trust myself with that yet. Better to be miserable with my current (stable) schedule than take on too much only to crash and burn. Butttt that's not gonna work for long either, misery is not something I want to allow myself to tolerate anymore..