the strongest of us can often be too strong for our own good; too strong to surrender, ask for help, give in to the realization of our weaknesses....
listen; I've been where you are and I am free of it. You can be, too.
You're a vet - here's something I recently learned; the VA has great resources. Do you have any service-connected issues? I had some small things I never really thought of as service-connected. After 20 years I recently filed for a VA claim and am 10% service connected - giving me access to a wealth of support. Including free counseling, access to medical care, addiction treatment - and a community of fellow veterans who have common background and struggles and have a lot of different support networks. I'd encourage you to leverage VA resources in any way you can. I was Army but I have a lot of Marine buddies. I know some of the scars Marine Corps Infantry service can leave behind.... you're not alone.
Get yourself plugged into all the support you can.... just like in the Corps, this isn't about just YOU. You don't have to overcome this on your own. Lean on your brothers and sisters just as you would in a war....
You can do this.
