Originally Posted by tomsteve

Am I not an alcoholic???? Is my behaviour acceptable???? Should I go back???
Oh I don't know my mind is all over the place now I don't know what to think.
your words can help yourself:

Hi there
Looking for advice, I'm 26 year old female who binge drinks twice a week to black out point. I'm aware I have a problem I can't drink alcohol without stopping and always out myself in dangerous situations. Last night was rock bottom, I ran away and was in woods and I wouldn't let my boyfriend find me. Once I'm in my black out state I become manic depressed and always talk about suicide or dark thoughts. I'm so scared when I hear everything back the next day but I seem to do it time after time. How do you stop alcohol without losing your friends I'm so young so going out is a huge part of my life but I realise it's going to end badly if I don't stop