This honestly hits home for me on so many levels. I was clean 3 + years and this past new years eve picked up my poor again. It was suppose to be a one time celebrate the new year type thing that has turned into (going on ) 3 weeks of using. I try so hard to quit, cry while I'm hiding and smoking, tell myself over and over this is the last bowl or I'm going to wake up loose my job, my kids, my life... considering I'm diabetic... and still I cannot stop yet.
It really does take a hold of you and doesn't ever let go.