I hate myself!
I'm really struggling to cope with anxiety. I started drinking again after 8 days and I feel absolutely dreadful. I woke up this morning feeling like I had been hit by a bus. So I drank some wine to take the edge off.
I hate what I have become. I want to stop. I really want to stop.
I am dreading tonight and tomorrow as I will be so anxious and it will be awful.
So sorry for the self pity, I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.