LB,
You have a plan, it doesnt mean that it has be to executed today. Winters are long. If you can get out in the "sun" and fresh air for walks. It brings yourself back to life. Look where you are today and where you were a year ago or 5 years ago. Life is so much better.
Keep the faith that you have really good options for your future. We all need a plan or a goal!! Hugs!!