This article might help...
https://digital-dharma.net/post-acut...r-immediately/
Staying sober is not the same as working on our recovery. Recovery work is what made sobriety bearable, sustainable and
eventually preferable to drinking.
There're lots of options for ways to work on recovery. I personally did the 12-step recovery program through AA, and this made an amazing difference to my experience if life and sobriety. I gained a whole new perspective. One thing that strikes me when I look at the 12 steps is that only the very first one even
mentions the word alcohol. The others are all about working on our self. The way we think, and the way we deal with life and other people. Just stopping drinking isn't enough to live happy and free. I suspect what you may be experiencing is pretty much white-knuckling abstinence. There is so much more for you than this, if you're willing to put the work in and to change the way you do some things.
BB