First things first... as you take care of you, all the rest will fall in line. (((Hugs)))
Have you been getting out to any 12 step meetings, counseling or other support groups?
As you find what's not working for you, that opens up more paths in other directions. There's no wrong path in healing... if you're putting desires of healing into your thought process, you'll find them somewhere...at some point.
Are you at a point where you're looking for baby steps to something new or a big leap to something drastically different?