Originally Posted by
Ragsdash 
Not proud of myself at all. How can an addict be proud?
I am quite proud- and at the same time gratefully humbled- by my addiction and my recovery. I believe it is the path of the warrior to get sober and live a good life in recovery. We are the lucky ones, the winners- and if we use our experience to benefit others (I am an AA person) then we are doing a great service to all.
It took time to work through a whole gamut of emotions, including regret, shame, resentment, to name a few; I still have (generally) fleeting thoughts of these at times. I am going on two years sober next month. Everything has been a process, one I will continue as long as I live.
Keep going - you can keep seeing things differently, and IME in a far more positive and hopeful and, yes, proud light the longer you are in recovery.
Best to you.