Mercedes,
I usually don't like being directional and I'm not saying that my suggestion is the right one for you but I can identify with your experience, from your husband's point of view, and I would like to say something concrete to you. I would encourage you to read the first post, which is actually a letter that someone wrote to a friend of his, with their name removed, to describe how he experienced his drinking problem and it's solution, of the thread here;
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html
If it seems to make sense to you, you could consider writing your own letter to your husband and include a printout of this letter to see if he can also relate to it.
From my own personal experience, please do not assume that he doesn't love you. He may simply be avoiding you in order to drink.