The healthier I become, the more I'm recognizing food issues I have.
Growing up in a dysfunctional household, there were many false and ill food relationships within the family unit that normalized very SICK behaviors.
I'm just starting to work this out on a very deep level.
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On the surface... I know good nutrition inside and out (ummm.... maybe a clue in now for my dysfunctions with this?
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I now enjoy many foods and restaurants of all kinds without judgement of them, myself or the people who eat there. This is after serious counseling, therapy and changing many habits and thought processes. (Still through this... I didn't realize I had food issues, until now...)
Reaching another level of recovery work. Suddenly food related memories between the the members of my FOO are flooding in and dots are being connected. HUGE and CONSISTENT power plays, control and psychological games all wrapped up in the general go-to of "let's make this look good" to the outside world... "let's present a fake image of love and caring to others, especially to the ones we invite to see this."