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Old 01-10-2018, 09:18 AM
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DontRemember
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Originally Posted by Ghoster18 View Post
Thanks DR
I'm a selfish gratifier!
We all probably are or were.
Yes I'm back out there
Not very uplifting to the purpose of this SR community.
But I am trying to find a way
G
God is a word that leaves me lost
I am a word the same
This negative yet buzz filled road
Is a path that always shames!
There's got to be more to life than this constricted oblivion
I know there is more.
I want to be challenged
I need to be uprooted
All I do when I'm sick
Is fill myself with quick release
Then I'm crawling like a snail dis eased.
Engulfed by justifications like a 10 tonne hammer pls.
It's suicide slowicide!
As i have kept it burning I realise I'm hooked on the ride.
It's just not logical no meaning here
It's me in some abstract form
Just feels good so why let go.
I guess death in the addiction is the why to stop.
I'm seeking sympathy oh poor you let us rub:scared :: scared: your back your shoulders too.
What ********!!!!
I know how you're feeling,man..I've/we've all been there. As you know..It takes one day at a time and not in the AA sense.. In the mushed brain sense. Get those 'one days' together again. Dump what you have,or hell,do it all as safe as possible(I'll get in trouble for this,but it's how I talk) and don't buy more. Just try to work on getting back to some sober days and make some solid plans. I'm going to be gone all day today,but hope you get some rest. I use to write out sobriety plans while hammered/depressed out of my mind,but they were there on paper when I came to and it was up to me to implement them. Take care and be safe,bud.
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