Go back to sleep Anna.
Sorry I'm not being cocky.
It's where I'm at today
I find with my addictive pattern that it works it's way through me physically then I'm done I'm like an onlooker.
If I was locked up or somewhere where I was unable to engage it I would have to do it.
So my take on it is a bit lame!
I just still like the spiky rushes.. which are about 1 to 2% of the experience and most of the other percentage time is low energy sadness.
It's a bad deal!
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