How is it going?
I love to go to concerts now, no need to stand in line for beer or the toilet.
You will get there, baby steps. Or big bold steps like Bimini. For me it was a combination of the two.
I am pretty determined once I set my mind to something, so I did stuff others would not early on. And the times I relapsed, were never high risk. Just highly stupid.
But like you, I got back on the horse and here I am. So long sober, I don't even remember how long!!
You will find your way, once you accept that it will never ever be one sip.
Once I totally and completely accepted emotionally that I was a compulsive drinker, I was done. Same with cigs -- once I realised that it was always going to be another round on the rollercoaster, I got off for good.
Now my not-husband gets to drink his drinks in peace, and we both have a good time at the show.
You will get there.