I am glad you are still here, PLEASE don't drink. Remember all the reasons you quit, now multiply that by ten, that is the vicious cycle of alcoholism. This disease is very cunning and will try to lure you back by any means, even telling you it wasn't that bad. If you make it back, you will have lost so much more than your clean days. Stay here or make a meeting, a call, anything except drink.
Hugs, Cathy