Thank you everyone for your support and understanding. I guess right now it's hard to wrap my head around this and even realize this is happening. I still feel that I am fault - is that normal?
I keep thinking that maybe it was a mistake.. That maybe I overreacted and he doesn't have a drinking problem? That he is a good man and he was right and I just didn't do my part? Maybe everything he said about me was right?... I admit I am nowhere near perfect, that I have things to work on.
But I am doubting myself so much. I could be the fear of being alone or it could be that I got beaten down so much that I can't even get back up.