Yea...this is one reason I know I can't drink anymore. My last 'fall off' was only one night,but it was a nightmare of a night for me. Some people would think it 'awesome' and have told me as much,but..being sober for 8mo to completely go off the rails for one night and do things I'd have not done sober...NO..not awesome and I hated myself for a while. Some 'sleazy' guys at AA thought it'd make for a great night? Some friends,that were there, thought I was fine. I just know I didn't like myself after it and I'm the only person that makes my decisions,soooooo..