doesn't come natural
I just got a wake up call from a friend. I sent him a message telling him how disappointed I was not hearing from him in a while. Turns out he is going through some problems. He has been doing so well, I never thought that maybe he is dealing with his own problems. Turns out he is have some problems. Talk about being so damn self centered. It was all about me. I'm really angry with myself right now. I sent him a message telling him I'll be there if he needs me, but the damage is already done.
I've spent my life helping others through my work, but haven't done so good in my personal life. You'd think it would be the other way around. Maybe cause I don't expect any gratitude from the people I have helped with my work. Sounds great, but maybe I should extend that same feeling to people I know. I have helped people that I know without expecting anything in return, so maybe I'm being just being too hard on myself. Really don't like myself right now. John