It is OK to cry.
I had to be told that a lot in the beginning. I didn't have to stuff or smother my emotions with bad behaviours that were just going to hurt me.
Do you have any sober friends or family you could spend time with, or even call?
Local AA chapters often have 24 hr gatherings on Christmas Eve/Day and New Years to support people and share some comraderie.
Do you have any other outlets to let off some steam? Journal? Run? Punch a pillow? Scream in a field?
You are not alone. Don't just ignore your feelings, accept they are there but also that you don't need to respond to them by drinking.
You are here, which means... you are not alone. And you are in a good, safe place. The ups and downs are pretty intense in the beginning. Keep posting and reading, and let that bring you some light... you are not alone. It will get better.
