Wildflower, please for your sake don't leave, you don't have to be sober to be here, there are many DAY 1s here, we are all struggling and we are all at different stages of recovery, the point is that we are always trying and always wanting to stop, as soon as you turn your back on that what is left.....?
Your AV/inner child/or whatever you want to call it will have its cake and eat it too, it will tell you that you aren't good enough, you're not part of the "clique" like everyone else (which by the way neither am I, however I don't think it exists here on SR), it will tell you to delete because you are a failure...but then what happens Wildflower if you do leave?
You are welcome here everyday, every hour, every second.. You are not going to bring other people down by your own struggles, allow yourself to be lifted up...
Stay here with us Wildflower...