Lana....the road ahead will not be a fraction as difficult as the one that has led you to this point.....
Now, it is time to get help and support for yourself.....
I am giving you the following link to our extensive library on alcoholism and the effects on the loved ones...I hope you will take the time to read through them.....
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...c-reading.html (Classic Reading)