AllamericanA

Have a decent part time job then stumble apon a Craig’s list job that pays 60k. I have to get there and train for 2 days. No I’m part time I get there- it’s just kinda shady. But I go along with it. It’s 60k! Let’s rewind a second we’ll be back. Been dating a girl for 5 years she supports me, she houses me, she cooks cleans, come from a great family. We’ve had 3 abortions has this immense pressure in me to get married and I do too. I had previously a factory supervisor job but was second shift and had no life what so Ever and had saved 5k for a ring and didn’t unseat lost that job from two benders and then spend the 5k in more benders at a friends in his basement (alone).

Back to shady job I make it back from the training session for job, 2 hour drive away, in my new (to me) 6 speed 2010 car best car I’ve ever had.. I bought that car with money I inherited from an aunt who was famous at one time who hung her self. My aunts brother my father was an alcoholic and died of it. I’m supposed to stay dec 18 it doesn’t work out I needed more training for a week. Week later rolls around I crash my new car drunk driving like a maniac I hope out of it and walk to my gf last at 4 am babbling like an idiot she Uber’s me to my moms where I wake up to door bell- cop telling me ab my car being crashed I lie and say it much have been stolen I’m still near blackout it’s ab 6 am so I ask for a card and send him on his way. The cars totaled and there no point of even trying to get it out of tow. Totally thee that car and money away.

Borrowing gfs car to get to work and she’s uber ing to work my old car won’t start. We’re fighting constantly! She wants to go to Ny to see family obviously I can’t afford that I need to get my car started and focused on 60k a year job right? “It’s for my b day come on I will loan you money for flight and pay for everything”... how can I resist oh and Christmas is just around the corner.... just wait... I’m supposed to be studying up on material for this job bc the next day we get back I need to be one a 2 hour car ride in a car- gf isnt going to loan me her car for a week- but we don’t talk a. That I hold it together a fairly well on our trip we argue constantly the whole fuckibg trip. She is having sundays scariest in flight back so she gets drunk which makes her argue even more the closer we get home the more she argues. We’re home and arguing ab everything in the world but what I need to be focused on. I bring up how am I making the trip to the job for the weeke if trading she flips and says I’m taking you to your moms. I start drinking. Wake up mom how am I getting there looking at bus services but how’d I get to work? Ok rental? All require credit card.. I have zero dollars. Waiting for part tim job to pay oh it finally hit how am I getting to train???? This car rental company doesn’t require a cc.

I get there 200 deposit ok Mom loans me some Monday how many days? 4 be back on gfs bday2 days before christmas oh u need to be here at 12.... I can well then u can return the car Tuesday but it’s 98 bucks okkk guess I’ll being it back Saturday by noon. All in all it was 400 bucks the shady Craig’s list job said would re inviting me they’re covering my hotelmoms relived to get me out of her hair gf is just bickering arguing w me via text oh and my cell service is shut off so I rely on WiFi. 2 hour car ride no cell service..

I get there in one piece but missed second day of training bc I wanted to be in a bed in a hotel by my self not listen to my gf bitching or have my mom nagging and wanted to just drink. Which I held together made it to work skipped breakfast the job is so shady I’m worried swats going to break in. Nothing dangled or sex or drug related with job just working with cheeses car accident attack victim attorneys. The guy training me show me a you tube clip talking ab our state- it had to have been the same people I can’t rven process what just happened. Why the **** did I come alll Thai way borrow money and get this job.........?!

Get done with work not paying any attention to anything. Get lost, pass anstrip club I’ve heard of, have no map or gpstakes me an hour to find hotel get a 12pack. Drink 8 beers start texting guy from training (bc the hotel has WiFi) ask him if he wants to go to strip club he laughs and sad no my kids going to be born soon but tells me I should. I smash 12 pack. Go get another bc it’s byob go there black out ff to be getting to hotel no idea how I got there I’m pinballjng off the walls of hallway fall and hit my head so hard. Back to black out. Some how wake up in my bed. A receipt tells me I got home via cab. Check my balance on my phone 100 at stir club all these little rancondom separate charges 100s spent. So I go get more beer fuckibg right I’m sick that’s what I told work and my “friend” I’m training under who old me the job was a scam and shady as **** and he’d quit if he weren’t having skid and referred me to strip club. I text him hey I’m not gonna make it today I don’t feel well he laughs and says don’t lie you went to the syrup club your hung over. But he was wrong I wants hung over I was drunk. I remover throwing up and stumbling around the room and shutting messy diarea. So I was sick ya am sick. Get an email that I’ve been fired and I have two days of hotel so why sober up and go argue with gf how I ruined her birthday and Christmas or be at moms while she’s angry at me too.

Cheers let’s get just a 6 pack of tall boys and chill. It it’s only a warm up and brings me back to a state I can only call feeling normal. Arguing with my gf more ab how terrible of a person I am she keeps up with my location via my phone as I do her she turns it off and her Tex’s are more and more angry it’s her b day. I need more beer.

I’ll have get a 12 that should be enough that’s like 20 beers today. She just understand the way I feel crashing my car, oh I quit my part time job too so lost them both, her 3 abortions my younger brother just having a son, the deaths off all fathers family but one, her not wanting to be together her just constant fuckibg agruing and I’m supposed to be there for her b day. She ends of a friends ex bys house won’t addresa it at all and just is fighting ab me quitting this job and how it’s the worst Christmas... I stay there until Christmas.

Wake up to not present under a tree but at least 4-12 packs gone and 6 -6 packs worth of garbage all over hotel floor. gfs location off more beer. Moms freakingnout ab how she’s a lone for Christmas I stop drinking and drive 2 hrs during Christmas and am so panicky paranoid I can’t even put it into words I was pouring sweat and look down and there are empty beer car and bottles in car. I’d get a dui if stoped. Pull over throw all that **** away. I look like death. Oh I spend 6days out of town should have been 2.... makenit In to city limits passing the exit all my family is gathered at and Mom pass my gfs exit where all her family is having Christmas I go to the nearest gas station and grab beer head to my moms drink ass fast as I can I am vomiting shorting sweating. Arguing with gf and anxiety my mom coming home or a sibling. I’m alone and it’s christmas. Rental car needs to be returned my gf def cheated. I need more beer idk how many days I’ve been here at my moms locked in my room with the door locked- waiting for her to leave so I get more beer in rental car that needs to be retuned