Hi itsgoingtobeok
The fear of being alone and sober was a big one for me too. I had the idea that it would be terrifying - and it was initially but once I pushed through with it I fiound that I didn't hate myself as much as I thought or mind my own company as ,uch as I thought I might.
The fear of being alone was much MUCH great than the reality.
That was my experience anyway
That being said, there's always someone online here, so none of us is never truly alone.
I'm glad you found us - come and post and intro in the newcomers forum as well - more response that way
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