This is a good topic, thanks for starting it.
I felt alone even when I wasn't alone. In recovery I'm discovering how overblown my expectations were for companionship and friendship.
It completely overwhelmed me. I didn't understand the concept of give and take.
There was no "easy does it".
Every interaction, it seemed, was fraught with anxiety and tension (people-pleasing, putting on a show, etc.), even toward my closest family members. Alcohol to the rescue.
But alcohol couldn't help me solve the aloneness, the apartness, I felt. And no amount of human contact could do it for me, either.
Only following a program of recovery has helped me. It's taken patient sober time for me to find a balanced place of being okay with who I am in relation to myself, firstly, and then, to being okay with who I am in relation to others.
Last edited by Carpathia; 12-22-2017 at 06:57 AM.