Returning
I spent about a month here last dec-Jan, I spent a week sober then dove back due to pretty harsh issues. I’ve had some time off work and drank the whole time. Wake up drink watch tv/cell go to sleep repeat. I did talk to my brother which helped.
Anyway I woke up yesterday and today feeling the worse I have all year. Trying to drink water and throwing it up minutes later, freezing my ass off (and I live LA), sweating at the same time and shaking.
I obviously know why I feel this way but it’s bad and talking about it is helping. I know I did this. To myself.
We have a good ten days left this year. I’m going to try and tether down, I’m thinking I might be able to ween down from six but I might need 8. (I say need meaning to get to sleep)
And to many that I appreciate suggest official medical treatment, that’s not an option for me in my prospective career patah..