SSG,
You have gotten great advice and support here.
I can only add that for me it was only when I emotionally and fully accepted, really accepted, that I was addicted that it clicked I completely stopped. Because I knew there was no there option. I would always be compelled to drink to excess. I have no control once I start.
But I totally control whether I start.
This seems to be a learning that can only be taught through trial and error.
You have that learning now. It does not change, this I know.
You got this.