I hope you spend some time reading your old posts and reading other peoples stories.
The best we can hope for by going back the way we came is to get to a point where we want to try SR again - thats the BEST we can hope for.
Your inner addict is telling you you don't care but thats a demonstrable lie - you wouldn't post if you didn't care.
ask yourself - what is it you hope drinking will give you? what are you looking for ?
surely there are less self destructive ways to find it, whatever it is?
I went out for a nights drinking one night - didn't get sober again for 2 and a half years. 2 and a half years of daily all day drinking.
This is a momentous decision before you. Please... choose wisely.
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