I felt the same way. I can only echo what Dee said, it takes time. Trust and healing will happen if you keep going. My relationship with my kids is improving on-going. But my relationship with my wife, is fine, as it is. It was broke before I started drinking, so I don’t expect more than it is. If you and your wife have a hearts bond, staying sober will create positive things. Stay strong, post, believe, and know it is worth it!!