Hi Sweetiepie32....Why not make your quit day today? I know it's scary. Maybe you feel that you can't make it through life without alcohol but it's clearly making your life worse not better, and that's why you want to stop.
Alcoholism is progressive and gradually just gets more and more destructive. My last year of drinking I managed to cut back quite a bit on the amount I was drinking, but my slip up behavior was worse than ever. I got arrested four times and had never been to jail before that year.
I think there needs to be some kind of plan in place that you can work at and devote yourself to each day while you sober up. Treat this like the life threatening illness that it is and go all out, making sobriety your most important goal of each day. It used to really help me to get on this forum first thing in the morning. Don't let fear hold you back. Alcoholism is so much scarier than living sober, without a doubt. You deserve much better than this
