Originally Posted by
Soulful 
I have always felt there is something wrong with me.
I mean I don’t know, I am not Miss Universe, but I am a good looking woman, smart (clearly not in this case), fun
I always felt I am not good enough to him and I used to find him search for escorts online and I knew he loved strip joints but I figured he grew out of it.
But the way he had sex with me, I just knew he was sleeping with these women... I didn’t want to believe it.
Today is the proof I finally got to take a deep breath and say: the whole ******* thing is over.
I feel disgusting, but moreso I feel it’s my fault. I just simply was never good enough for him.
You're not good enough for him? Based on this, I would say that he's not good enough for YOU. The fact that he was sleazing around with so many other people says a lot about him and absolutely nothing about you.
I'm very sorry for the huge shock you must be feeling now. Maybe in time this will appear as a moment of clarity, the time when you realized absolutely, definitely, beyond any doubt, that this is not someone you can spend your life with.
(this is the man that insinuated you were having an affair with your business partner? Projection, deflection ...).