Hey, Dusk--hope you're hanging in there. It took me many tries before something clicked; that is just the nature of the beast of alcoholism. Don't give up. SR is a great place to come for support and advice. Wishing you all the best in your sober journey; please believe me-you can do this. I was pretty much at rock-bottom and now have 23 months. Things aren't perfect, but they are good. That's plenty enough.