kate,
I still am emotional, but now I am much more stable. I am drug free so my bio changes are all due to food and health.
I was very emotional in the early months. I could be triggered easily.
For the first several months I was hyper sensitive to light, sound, terrain changes, and lack of food.
I'd come here and vent, work out as hard as I can, and know it is my brain healing after years and years of being routinely soaked in booze.
I don't expect much out of myself and I don't expect folks to treat me any better. If I do well I am happy. If folks treat me better that is a bonus.
It is tough getting sober, but I am tough. I had to be tough to drink as hard as I did for 40 plus years.
Two week ago, I stopped drinking 1.5 liters of water a day, eliminated the caffeine, and began to watch my sodium intake. I went into a serious funk for a few days.
I almost went to the ER thinking I was having a stroke or something. But, I didn't and I am still here. It was all in my mind.
Thanks.