I can totally relate, same pattern was for me. Get up, hungover and resolve to stop, hangover fades, get through the work day, drive home, feel tired and down, stop by the store, get a massive bottle of wine, go home, watch TV like a zombie, drink whole bottle, pass out, wash, rinse repeat. Add in some binges (more frequent and worse each time) and hospital stays. Doing things differently this time. Day 24, we can do this.