Welcome! I too have had the same feelings about AA, BUT I am going to try them again with an open mind. I am on Day 20 and will be transitioning back to my world soon (with the family now). My biggest gap and need is connection with people, and while it's by no means perfect, what AA has going for it is an abundance of people and meetings. I will go back to meetings open to the fellowship, and I am going to make the "god" part my own, with my own spiritual application and definition of what god is. I think in the end AA is what you make of it and what you take from it. Whatever path you choose, good luck. Make sobriety #1 in your life, that's my plan. I need to do whatever it takes to keep it.