fbb....I am glad that you got a good cry at the therapist, today......
I am giving you the following link to our extensive library of excellent articles, again....It would help if you read some of them every day...there are dozens and dozens of them....
They were written with the tears of those that came before you...and, you will realize that you certainly are not alone. You can get a l ot of inspiration from them.
Another thing that you can do is to click on the name of any poster (beside their picture).....choose "past threads" from the drop down list. That way, you can read the posts of any person from the very first one!! You can see their progress, that way.....
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...c-reading.html (Classic Reading)