Hi
I just joined and am totally panicking
Three days since I last drank and i realized i screwed up badly, I cant even think about drinking again, no way, just too scared and if I survive this I'll never touch alcohol again! Don't feel cravings for it either so this is where it stops.
I have been drinking around 3-5 times a week for about 2years I think. Having many breaks, a month here and there, no bad withdrawals. Amount of alcohol is usually 4-5 pints of 4,6% beer. Sometimes 6 but I can count on one hand the times I have drank more than 7. Never any stronger spirits than that. Randomly easy weeks to, 1-2 times a week with only 2-3 pints of beer.
3 months ago if somebody asked if I where an alcoholic I would just say no I'm just an idiot with bad habits, now I'm not sure.
just over 2 years ago I was an athlete in the national team so practically no drinking then. I quit sports due to injury and finally could enjoy drinking without it hurting my performance, thats how I started all this **** and it got out of hand.
I had slowed down my drinking to two times a week, and then decided to stop because nothing good comes out of this. I managed to stop, sober for two weeks, almost no withdrawals, but then my parents gave me one full case of like 30 beers. Thanks... not. Drank for about a week and not any more than those beers and wow now I feel like ****.
Ran out of beer three days ago but the last hangover was awful.
Felt so weak and had shortness of breath and the following day was even weaker, almost fainted once. A bit more energy today but that's because I've been resting.
Could I have weakened my heart because of all this? I think its "just beer" so I would not think it would hurt my heart. If it is my heart I believe it's more like I have some underlying condition that now is surfacing because of my stupid drinking. I'm thinking "athletes heart" or whatever it's called if you train to much without rest. So now if I go to the hospital and they find something they will obviously assume it is because of alcoholism right? Now that will effectively limit my treatment options...
Feel like the most stupid idiot now.
Or is this weakness all because of withdrawal? Anybody felt similar sensations? Symptoms more precise: Moderate fatigue most of the time, have to lay down for a while to not feel physically weak. Random episodes of exhaustedness in stomach as if I where doing som crazy sprints or intervals, but they go away quickly. If I walk up the stairs I get shortness of breath ridiculously easy. Then towards afternoon I get very exhausted and struggle to walk just as if heart does not pump enoug, I feel in the chest as I do towards the end of a physical test. Also being active like visiting a friend makes me tired even if I sit down. All the time a bit uneasy feeling in chest, sometimes pain. First day after quitting drinking I almost fainted, felt totally like drifting out of consciousness.
Sorry I know I'm rambling and perhaps make no sense but I'm very greatful if you read this far
