Hi again.
I don't know if I'm posting too much at one time. I just posted a long one about 2 hours ago. I can feel the grief coming on. I'm a little bit scared and very sad. I don't want this to be for nothing. I don't want him to contact me. I want to know he didn't even try so I can finally fully feel it and except it. Which means i will desperately want him to contact me. I want to get through this and see what is left of me. My story with him is ending and it is so painful. He borrowed my heart for 7 1/2 years. Hearts aren't meant to be borrowed.