Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
Welcome back QuietToday. Sorry to hear about what brings you here, but there are some options as others have mentioned.
I think above and beyond everything though, you are going to have to focus on your drinking. 100% of your problems are directly related to it, so if you want to be able to fix any of the others you are going to have to stop first. It won't be comfortable at first, and there is help available through many of the suggestions above. But the bottom line is that your drinking is the source of everything bad in your life - and you have the power to make the choice to quit and stay quit.
This.
The OP life is a mess. O.k. What to do. First thing is... like it or not the OP has got to stop drinking.
Keep mucking around and he'll end up homeless in California and perhaps never get out of the cycle. Go to a city like San Francisco and you'll find plenty of people with drink/drug addition that have taken to life on the streets.