I hate alcohol
I've been doing so good but here I am now feeling awful and trying to cure myself from a hangover.
I don't know what happened. It's like the ugly monster took over me and I couldn't do anything to control it. I clearly remember thinking "you are screwing up" as I was walking to the cooler for beer, but it had a hold of me. I have to find a way to kill the monster once and for all. I cannot continue to live like this.
The guilt, anxiety, and sadness is intensified this morning. My plans for today are ruined, and makes me feel even worse about myself. All I'm doing is just sitting here crying feeling sorry for myself. And all for what? Because I lost control.