This is one thing that I have realized and have actually honestly and genuinely accepted as of late. That if I continue on this path of drinking very heavily ever night it will kill me no doubt. In the past, I knew this of course, but always thought that I would quit, that it was "just this one more time", but its not just this one more time, it just keeps going on, evening after evening, week after week, month after month. I have to stop now while there still is a tomorrow for me.
If I stop now I now that only good things will come from stopping, better health, better sleep, better functioning and I do not have that nagging insecurity or sense of less self worth because those around me do not have this secret.
God, I so much wish to put this behind me!!