Originally Posted by
shortstop81 
- I do believe in an AV, and definitely feel there are elements of it affecting my thoughts. I can see how an endless barrage of negative thinking/feelings have driven me to drink in the past, just to shut it all down for a little while. I guess that's why I've been questioning how much of this is ME, vs something far more unhealthy yet temporary.
Glad you are feeling a bit better today, Shortstop. I relate to your post. I think the above snippet says a lot. I gave those escalating circular torturous thoughts what they were really asking for, too. Drink. Like buying the toy for the screaming child at the market.
You are very articulate and are clearly working on insight to all the aspects of yourself and not-you. I can only applaud and repeat: “good going”!