I'm working on it
I'm not happy and this is not the relationship I imagined in life. It is the one I received/created. All I do is identify and ruminate. Life has gotten in the way of taking a more active role in leaving.
It is, the picture I painted without the A is scarier than the picture with the A. How does one function in a whole new life? I'm scared of all the what ifs. If only I can create a new life with him but I'm seeing that will never meet with a true satisfaction either. It can't happen if I'm the only one in recovery.