There’s a line in the movie Silver Linings Playbook: “one incident can change a lifetime.”
Applies to alcoholism in so many ways. Applies to my quit as well. Your story reminded me of that, your sobriety for months, one big binge, and one awful incident. I hope the fallout was repairable and what it means is that you’re done with alcohol. It’s how I see the incident I experienced: terrible, but with a silver lining.