Well, here comes a long post. I need to get this out somehow because it’s eating me up inside. It’s a contributing factor in the last relapse.
I have brother who’s just toxic. I haven’t had any contact with him for a year now. My problems with alcohol pale in comparison with his. He drank and smoked his way into a pacemaker. He didn’t slow his drinking down until he threatened with being fired. He didn’t stop until a doctor told him he’d die if he didn’t stop drinking. He even continued drinking after the pacemaker was put in. He still doesn’t think he’s an alcoholic.
He thinks his siblings are required to take care of him because he got all the bad DNA when he was born. When my mother was still alive, there were times he would lie and con her into giving him money so, he could pay his bills and, continue drinking
A couple of weeks back he called my 66 year old sister and, suggested that she comes to his house once a week and clean, do laundry and go grocery shopping for him. This is on top of everything else that is done for him by his siblings. He makes excellent money and can pay to get these things done for him easily. My sister lives an hour away from him and, is under a lot of stress to begin with.
My sister called after this request was made and told me about it. She was quite angry. About a day later she had a TIA. Two days later she had a full blown stroke. I can’t help but wonder if his request wasn’t a factor in the stroke.
Now it’s come to light that he’s read one book on spirituality. He’s now been born again and, has turned his life over to God. He thinks God can cure everything.
My other sister has severe mental health disabilities. She’s on medication to control her behavior. She always will be. The medicine is a completely nonnegotiable point. She’s stopped taking it in the past and, it’s always turns into a disaster.
Now my brother is trying to convince her to turn her life over to god and, become a spiritual person. Because if she does, God will heal her and, she’ll be able to stop taking her medication. I’m a believer but, Gods not going to cure my sister.
He’s done other equally bizarre things too. I won’t go into those.
Needless to say my anger is through the roof right now. It’s not going away. I laid in bed last night and, thought about this and everything else that’s screwed up in my life and, just started crying. I finally took some PM cold medication to help me sleep.
I'm hoping and praying that this the bottom. I don’t know if I can take much more. All I know is I’m not going to drink today.