update....coast is clear at the moment...the whatever kind of break-down I was having earlier let up about as quick as it came on.
I've got my mind off of all this stuff finally and will have to keep it that way until I am better equipped to deal with it without freaking out and hating myself even more and more...over stupid stuff.
Sorry for wasting server space with this thread.
Pray for me still though...if you would,
Jenna