love your post. yeah i basicly was thinking in circles i think i still do at times. and its easy to get sucked into it then next ya know you sorta come too and realize your brain took you for a detour again.
I was running out of ears that would listen to me too so it was nice to find others that understood what i was dealing with.
it sounds like your getting a handle on it. I know for me things where pretty crazy for a while till i straightend more of my BS out etc...]